symphony soldier

I laugh when babies laugh and I cry when animals die in movies.

Name's Madison. Hufflepuff. ISFP/ISFJ. Choleric. Suffering high school student. Sometimes I write. Fluent in sarcasm.

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I posted this three times tonight and had three people tell me that I helped save their life. Thank you to those people who have decided to struggle through to let us enjoy the gift of one more day of their prescence gracing us all. I hope that you all reblog this, to save another few. Because we all dserve another chance and hope in life. I went to the hospital 6 times before I decided to keep my life but I hope none of you suffer that much. And I hope you all can make that scary, seemingly painful, blind, hoping, wonderful step to live.
I want to help you in any way I can. ANYTHING. I mean it. If I had had someone stay with me and text me or talk to me all night, just one time, it would have changed my life. I know how hard those nights can be.
<3,
Love,
Emily

^I love this girl more than words can express.  

foundmywaywheniwaslost: I am always here if anyone ever needs to talk/vent. You have a purpose, Please Stay Alive. <3

Not just for tonight but for the rest of your life. You have so much to look forward to in the future that if you choose to kill yourself, it will be the biggest mistake of your life. You’re going to miss out on people you’ll never be able to meet, kids you’ll never have, a partner to love or partys to go to. There’s just too much that you’ll miss out on. You deserve and have the right to be here as much as the person next to you does. You’re just a drop in the ocean. You were meant to be here and you have a purpose. Don’t ever forget that. And if you feel like you don’t, just believe in yourself because you do. If you ever feel worthless or like shit, know that I love you and those dicks that tell you shit are jealous that you’re who you are because there’s something about you that they wish they could have. Please stay strong and never give up because things DO GET BETTER.

3rd time I reblog this xx

Keep your self awake, I hope your here to stay. This day is not yet over, let me be your four leaf clover.

Reblogged it and queued it so it’ll post tomorrow too. And the next day and the next so I hope I can save someone. We all love you.

someone messaged me this morning saying it helped and thanked me, so im reblogging this again, and queuing it. stay strong guys. 

I reblog this whenever I see it. If you don’t reblog it, unfollow me right now. If you don’t care enough to put this simple picture on your blog, I’m judging you.

The very first time that I reblogged this, I had someone message me the next day saying that because of me, they didn’t kill themself. From then on whenever I see anything like this on Tumblr it’s an instant reblog for me. After receiving that message it just changed something in me. Whenever anyone I see on my dash is having thoughts of self-harm or even suicide, I automatically go to their page and offer them even just an ear to listen. Nearly all of them I receive messages back from saying that they are grateful, and they end up sharing their story with me, and in return I give them advice as best I can. Several of them have said that their lives have gotten much better because they opened up and sought out help.
Out of those people, I’d say at least 5  have even gone so far as to say that they didn’t kill themself because of me. That is, I kid you not, the best feeling in the world.

I needed this reminder. 

 This is It!

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brianmchale:

welcometomylifeex3:

raquelsh0lding0ntillmay:

foundmywaywheniwaslost:

alittledoseofsunshine:

sort-of-un-balanced:

I posted this three times tonight and had three people tell me that I helped save their life. Thank you to those people who have decided to struggle through to let us enjoy the gift of one more day of their prescence gracing us all. I hope that you all reblog this, to save another few. Because we all dserve another chance and hope in life. I went to the hospital 6 times before I decided to keep my life but I hope none of you suffer that much. And I hope you all can make that scary, seemingly painful, blind, hoping, wonderful step to live.

I want to help you in any way I can. ANYTHING. I mean it. If I had had someone stay with me and text me or talk to me all night, just one time, it would have changed my life. I know how hard those nights can be.

<3,

Love,

Emily

^I love this girl more than words can express.  

foundmywaywheniwaslost: I am always here if anyone ever needs to talk/vent. You have a purpose, Please Stay Alive. <3

Not just for tonight but for the rest of your life. You have so much to look forward to in the future that if you choose to kill yourself, it will be the biggest mistake of your life. You’re going to miss out on people you’ll never be able to meet, kids you’ll never have, a partner to love or partys to go to. There’s just too much that you’ll miss out on. You deserve and have the right to be here as much as the person next to you does. You’re just a drop in the ocean. You were meant to be here and you have a purpose. Don’t ever forget that. And if you feel like you don’t, just believe in yourself because you do. If you ever feel worthless or like shit, know that I love you and those dicks that tell you shit are jealous that you’re who you are because there’s something about you that they wish they could have. Please stay strong and never give up because things DO GET BETTER.

3rd time I reblog this xx

Keep your self awake, I hope your here to stay. This day is not yet over, let me be your four leaf clover.

Reblogged it and queued it so it’ll post tomorrow too. And the next day and the next so I hope I can save someone. We all love you.

someone messaged me this morning saying it helped and thanked me, so im reblogging this again, and queuing it. stay strong guys. 

I reblog this whenever I see it. If you don’t reblog it, unfollow me right now. If you don’t care enough to put this simple picture on your blog, I’m judging you.

The very first time that I reblogged this, I had someone message me the next day saying that because of me, they didn’t kill themself. From then on whenever I see anything like this on Tumblr it’s an instant reblog for me. After receiving that message it just changed something in me. Whenever anyone I see on my dash is having thoughts of self-harm or even suicide, I automatically go to their page and offer them even just an ear to listen. Nearly all of them I receive messages back from saying that they are grateful, and they end up sharing their story with me, and in return I give them advice as best I can. Several of them have said that their lives have gotten much better because they opened up and sought out help.

Out of those people, I’d say at least 5  have even gone so far as to say that they didn’t kill themself because of me. That is, I kid you not, the best feeling in the world.

I needed this reminder. 


This is It!

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kerinelly:

rightondallas:

scottymouth:

Sooooo….the top left.
You’ve got to be SHITTING me.
Let me get this straight: somebody can say tons of racist and homophobic shit and still get crowned one of the most “Influential” teens of 2014 by Time Magazine?
Is that a message we’re trying to send out to America’s youth? “You can be a huge cunt and offend a lot of people, but who cares?! Here’s a prize for your douchebaggery!”
Regardless of how many followers he has on Vine, I don’t think a bigot deserves this title. 

Want to know why he’s on the list?
Because each day he has to put up with people like you that constantly bring him down. Can you believe that? He’s a 16 year old who has made one mistake and he has millions like you telling him to die and calling him crash, his response? He tries not to let it get to him, even though he’s had a history of depression. You people literally drove him to delete his tumblr.
THE SAME PEOPLE that are so against bullying and critize a person for making mistakes in their past. You may ask why I said one mistake and not two? Sure it was offensive when he yelled fag in a video following an AIDS commercial, but guess what he has apologized so many times and he had put down the video. He’s tried so hard to prove he is genuinely sorry. Then he made a video in which he stated HIS PREFERENCE.
I find it so fucking insane that people are literally telling him to die and calling him a sexist for saying that HE doesn’t like body hair on women. NEWSFLASH HUNNY MILLIONS OF MEN AND WOMEN AGREE WITH HIM, SO SORRY TO BURST YOUR BUBBLE FULL OR IGNORANCE BUT ITS TRUE. I don’t like guys with fucking mustaches, so what? Are you going to push me to delete my tumblr and constantly make threats?

YASSSSSSS REBLOGGING FOR THE LAST COMMENT

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^^^👏👏👏👏👏👏

😩👏

☝️yaaas BITCH

Okay, I can understand if you like him and want to defend him but one mistake? Let’s go down the list, shall we? 
(In No Particular Order)
1. What Guys Look For In Girls: A video, which, by the title, would imply all guys are like this. This video wouldn’t have been so upsetting if it wasn’t someone with this much power. This guy has millions of people, mostly young, teenage girls, who watch his videos and now feel bad about themselves. I could go into more detail, but literally everything I could say is in this video by TheThirdPew who is only a year older than Nash. I suggest you watch it.

2. Use of homophobic and racist statements on twitter: This is a biggie. A lot of these tweets have since been deleted but he still made them. I don’t really think this one needs an explanation. Not to mention the horrible grammar in some of them, but hey I’m not Jack Douglass. 




3. The HIV Vine: If you don’t know about this, this is a vine he made from an advertisement raising awareness for HIV Testing, where it’s stated ‘it’s not a gay thing!’ and cuts into a clip of him saying, ‘yes it is, f*g!’ Which again, shouldn’t need an explanation. The vine has been taken down, but I think you can still find it reposted on a bunch of places, such as Tyler Oakley’s twitter. 

I could go on, but these are the three biggest things that come to mind. Now, I’m not saying he’s a bad person. You know, I think there’s good in everybody (10 points if you got that reference). It’s just the fact that he has all of this power, and he’s using it to spread hate. 
'But he's only 16 and has a lot of pressure on him!' 
Are you freaking kidding me?
No doubt about it, he has pressure on him, but let’s look at another person on the list: Malala.
She literally got shot in the head for trying to go to school. There’s a lot of people who want her dead in the world, and unlike the 'millions like you telling him to die and calling him crash' (A direct quote from the above statement). These people actually have the ability to kill her. And she knows that. But she’s spreading her message, and that message doesn’t have to do with freaking shaving your legs.
I’m not trying to compare him to Malala in any way. She’s an activist and he’s a viner. But he has so much potential to be doing something good, I mean, and it’s not like it’s impossible. Other YouTubers and viners have done plenty of things…off the top of my head: 
1. Tyler Oakley has raised over $500,000 for The Trevor Project for suicidal teenagers. (Donate here: x) 
2. Connor Franta has raised over $230,000 for The Thirst Project. The money will be used to build wells in Africa. 
And in non monetary ways, many YouTubers have made videos about body positivity, mental disorders, and other heavy issues in an effort to make people feel better about themselves (ie. Shane Dawson’s videos about eating disorders, suicide, etc., Emma Blackery’s music video about how you matter, all those O2L videos saying how pretty and great you are, etc etc…) 
As for ‘oh but he apologized.’ 
Don’t even.
What he did was hardly an apology. He literally wrote tweets slightly over the character limit, saying (a direct quote from one of the tweets) 'I was young and stupid' 
Okay, first of all, that’s something you say 20 years after something happens and you actually have time to reflect on how bad the thing was, not less than 6 months later. 
Secondly, if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.
if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.
if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.
if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.
I don’t know how many times I can say it. If you are genuinely sorry about something, you’re not going to make a little tiny tweet about it, post it long enough for someone to screenshot it, and then delete it. 
Example? Shane Dawson. Notorious for offensive videos, arguably worst of all: Black Facing. 

What Shane did was completely wrong. But, the way he addressed the issue was very mature of him and much more than a little tweet. You can watch his apology video here: x. This is how an apology is meant to be. He doesn’t try to justify what he did in any way. He acknowledges that he was ignorant and deleted every single video that included that type of offensive material. He even tried removing ads on that video so people would realize he wasn’t trying to make a quick buck off of it.

So, in short: STOP TRYING TO TURN THIS FREAKING LITTLE SHIT INTO A MARTYR. HE IS NOT A MARTYR. 
HE IS A TEENAGE BOY WHO NEEDS TO TAKE A STEP BACK, REALIZE HOW POPULAR HE IS, STEP BACK, AND BE A BETTER PERSON.
HE LITERALLY IS ONE OF THE 25 MOST INFLUENTIAL TEENS HE REALLY NEEDS TO REALIZE HOW FREAKING POPULAR HE IS GOODNESS GRACIANYAS. 

Don’t forget his racist jokes about black girls on vine!!!

Finally somebody sad it!!

He’s on the list because he IS influential. Nobody specified he was influential in a good way.Hitler was influential as well.

Okay he offended some of you, boohoo get over it, he has the right to have opinions and say what he likes just like all of you do.

And we have the right to criticise him for it
There is literally no justifying or defending someone who obnoxiously screams that HIV is a homosexual disease and actively claims that gay people don’t deserve the same rights as everyone else
We have the right to tell him he’s being a fucking cunt for as long as he has the right to act like one

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kindofleigh:

nancyc14:

someespinosa:

espinosas-cupcake:

hayesmygrier:

kerinelly:

rightondallas:

scottymouth:

Sooooo….the top left.

You’ve got to be SHITTING me.

Let me get this straight: somebody can say tons of racist and homophobic shit and still get crowned one of the most “Influential” teens of 2014 by Time Magazine?

Is that a message we’re trying to send out to America’s youth? “You can be a huge cunt and offend a lot of people, but who cares?! Here’s a prize for your douchebaggery!”

Regardless of how many followers he has on Vine, I don’t think a bigot deserves this title. 

Want to know why he’s on the list?

Because each day he has to put up with people like you that constantly bring him down. Can you believe that? He’s a 16 year old who has made one mistake and he has millions like you telling him to die and calling him crash, his response? He tries not to let it get to him, even though he’s had a history of depression. You people literally drove him to delete his tumblr.

THE SAME PEOPLE that are so against bullying and critize a person for making mistakes in their past. You may ask why I said one mistake and not two? Sure it was offensive when he yelled fag in a video following an AIDS commercial, but guess what he has apologized so many times and he had put down the video. He’s tried so hard to prove he is genuinely sorry. Then he made a video in which he stated HIS PREFERENCE.

I find it so fucking insane that people are literally telling him to die and calling him a sexist for saying that HE doesn’t like body hair on women. NEWSFLASH HUNNY MILLIONS OF MEN AND WOMEN AGREE WITH HIM, SO SORRY TO BURST YOUR BUBBLE FULL OR IGNORANCE BUT ITS TRUE. I don’t like guys with fucking mustaches, so what? Are you going to push me to delete my tumblr and constantly make threats?

YASSSSSSS REBLOGGING FOR THE LAST COMMENT

^^

^^^👏👏👏👏👏👏

😩👏

☝️yaaas BITCH

Okay, I can understand if you like him and want to defend him but one mistake? Let’s go down the list, shall we? 

(In No Particular Order)

1. What Guys Look For In Girls: A video, which, by the title, would imply all guys are like this. This video wouldn’t have been so upsetting if it wasn’t someone with this much power. This guy has millions of people, mostly young, teenage girls, who watch his videos and now feel bad about themselves. I could go into more detail, but literally everything I could say is in this video by TheThirdPew who is only a year older than Nash. I suggest you watch it.

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2. Use of homophobic and racist statements on twitter: This is a biggie. A lot of these tweets have since been deleted but he still made them. I don’t really think this one needs an explanation. Not to mention the horrible grammar in some of them, but hey I’m not Jack Douglass. 

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3. The HIV Vine: If you don’t know about this, this is a vine he made from an advertisement raising awareness for HIV Testing, where it’s stated ‘it’s not a gay thing!’ and cuts into a clip of him saying, ‘yes it is, f*g!’ Which again, shouldn’t need an explanation. The vine has been taken down, but I think you can still find it reposted on a bunch of places, such as Tyler Oakley’s twitter. 

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I could go on, but these are the three biggest things that come to mind. Now, I’m not saying he’s a bad person. You know, I think there’s good in everybody (10 points if you got that reference). It’s just the fact that he has all of this power, and he’s using it to spread hate. 

'But he's only 16 and has a lot of pressure on him!' 

Are you freaking kidding me?

No doubt about it, he has pressure on him, but let’s look at another person on the list: Malala.

She literally got shot in the head for trying to go to school. There’s a lot of people who want her dead in the world, and unlike the 'millions like you telling him to die and calling him crash' (A direct quote from the above statement). These people actually have the ability to kill her. And she knows that. But she’s spreading her message, and that message doesn’t have to do with freaking shaving your legs.

I’m not trying to compare him to Malala in any way. She’s an activist and he’s a viner. But he has so much potential to be doing something good, I mean, and it’s not like it’s impossible. Other YouTubers and viners have done plenty of things…off the top of my head: 

1. Tyler Oakley has raised over $500,000 for The Trevor Project for suicidal teenagers. (Donate here: x

2. Connor Franta has raised over $230,000 for The Thirst Project. The money will be used to build wells in Africa. 

And in non monetary ways, many YouTubers have made videos about body positivity, mental disorders, and other heavy issues in an effort to make people feel better about themselves (ie. Shane Dawson’s videos about eating disorders, suicide, etc., Emma Blackery’s music video about how you matter, all those O2L videos saying how pretty and great you are, etc etc…) 

As for ‘oh but he apologized.’ 

Don’t even.

What he did was hardly an apology. He literally wrote tweets slightly over the character limit, saying (a direct quote from one of the tweets) 'I was young and stupid' 

Okay, first of all, that’s something you say 20 years after something happens and you actually have time to reflect on how bad the thing was, not less than 6 months later. 

Secondly, if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.

  • if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.
  • if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.
  • if he really cared he would have addressed it more directly.

I don’t know how many times I can say it. If you are genuinely sorry about something, you’re not going to make a little tiny tweet about it, post it long enough for someone to screenshot it, and then delete it. 

Example? Shane Dawson. Notorious for offensive videos, arguably worst of all: Black Facing. 

image

What Shane did was completely wrong. But, the way he addressed the issue was very mature of him and much more than a little tweet. You can watch his apology video here: x. This is how an apology is meant to be. He doesn’t try to justify what he did in any way. He acknowledges that he was ignorant and deleted every single video that included that type of offensive material. He even tried removing ads on that video so people would realize he wasn’t trying to make a quick buck off of it.

image

So, in short: STOP TRYING TO TURN THIS FREAKING LITTLE SHIT INTO A MARTYR. HE IS NOT A MARTYR. 

HE IS A TEENAGE BOY WHO NEEDS TO TAKE A STEP BACK, REALIZE HOW POPULAR HE IS, STEP BACK, AND BE A BETTER PERSON.

HE LITERALLY IS ONE OF THE 25 MOST INFLUENTIAL TEENS HE REALLY NEEDS TO REALIZE HOW FREAKING POPULAR HE IS GOODNESS GRACIANYAS. 

Don’t forget his racist jokes about black girls on vine!!!

Finally somebody sad it!!

He’s on the list because he IS influential. Nobody specified he was influential in a good way.

Hitler was influential as well.

Okay he offended some of you, boohoo get over it, he has the right to have opinions and say what he likes just like all of you do.

And we have the right to criticise him for it

There is literally no justifying or defending someone who obnoxiously screams that HIV is a homosexual disease and actively claims that gay people don’t deserve the same rights as everyone else

We have the right to tell him he’s being a fucking cunt for as long as he has the right to act like one

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"That’s one of the great things about music. You can sing a song to 85,000 people and they’ll sing it back for 85,000 different reasons."

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RIGHT IN THE CHILDHOOD

I WAS NOT READY FOR THAT. 

THAT CAME WITH NO WARNING WHATSOEVER.

Not ok

ruledbycrowley:

qfabrayale:

the-sputnik-complex:

thegoblet-of-fire:

RIGHT IN THE CHILDHOOD

I WAS NOT READY FOR THAT. 

THAT CAME WITH NO WARNING WHATSOEVER.

Not ok

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fucking ellen

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shout out to all the gay girls in love with straight girls y’all are warriors

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